i have some serious questions about religion like religion is really confusing to me and im trying really really hard to believe in christianity because just some of it doesn’t make sense??
but okay well i want to know if my dad is looking down on me?? like idk i’ve tried looking it up on google but idk i kinda wanna hear from people on here because most of the people I’ve found on google are mainly just hardcore christians and i know that not everybody is a christian and i wanna hear it from a different pov?? idk i just really need to know this badly and i know that my dad is in heaven (if there is a heaven) bc he accepted Christ into his heart
there are some things that i like about religion like it makes me feel safe and happy knowing that my dad is still well and happy but i don’t like that there are so many things you cannot do if you want to be a true Christian and if u want to go to heaven you have to be perfect and I’m not perfect and im scared if that there really is a heaven i won’t be able to go because i have sinned so much and apparently suicide is a sin? and im guessing self harm is too? idk im just really upset and i know nobody is gonna have the definite answers but i just kinda wanna hear what you all think and if somebody would be kind enough to just let me vent to them because i really need that right now because I’m scared I’m gonna relapse idk sorry :((((((